| break out and you just lose control. when you've been stuck somewhere so long, you can't control yourself. like a deaf person who hasn't taken all those years of voice modulation, and can suddenly hear himself speak. i need "to take a good hard look at myself" and be honest. funny cause i thought i had this mastered. but i guess my mistakes showed up in the light .
"i want a girl who isn't addicted to the computer and doesn't think she can beat everyone up"
i have feelings. they get hurt.
goodday. 
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| Your body may be gone, i'm gonna carry you in |
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| i'm scared and about to shit my pants. i'm floating above everyone. it's a roller coaster, it's a trap, it's a beautiful field where nobody exists...that's the place i need to get too. it's not my fault that i am so scared, it's my family, my friends, my brain....everything has been quietly running against me since i was really young. i've never been hit. the worst beating is the silence.
the silence from your father kills me inside, baby.
the worst beating is nothing. cause then they just wait until you beat yourself.
we've gotten lucky that everything is perfect. i am actually communicating with everybody. i think i can do it on my own. that was the entire point of my life, i guess. 
& Daniel Athos et Maddy Louise, neuf dix-sept deux mille et huit jusqu'à pour toujours.
^ i'm inking this on my left wrist on my 18th birthday.
i'm doing this to remind us of fighting and making out and walking out in French class in the tenth grade, the year we met, and all of the places we've been.
"Daniel Athos and Maddy Louise, 9-17-2008 until forever." ☮ Love and
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